liltomatoforlife

Hi Mother Earth,

i aint feeling that happy.
WRONG FEELINGS! ):

FAMILY, FRIENDS,OPPORTUNITY COST

I FEEL SO TROUBLED BY THE FACT THAT GRANDPA IS CURSING AND SWEARING AT HIS OWN FAMILY MEMBERS.

I SALUTE DADDY FOR BEING ABLE TO WITHSTAND EVERYTHING.

DADDY HAS BEEN THE ONE HOLDING THE FAMILY TOGETHER.

HE IS A AWESOME DADDY.

HE DOES HOUSEWORK, HE KEEPS THE HOUSE CLEAN AND HE HAS TO GO OUT FOR WORK.

HOW CAN I NOT LOVE MY DAD.

UNCLE HAS ONLY A FEW MORE MONTHS LEFT.

IDK HOW TO REACT BY THEN.

MUMMY HAS BEEN WORKING EVERYDAY,

AND I CAN SEE THAT SHE IS DEAD TIRED.

);

IDK WHO IS THE REAL FRIENDS.

YES, I HAVE GREAT COMPANIES AROUND ME.

AND I'M V.V.V.V GLAD.

YES, I REALLY AM.

BUT THERE ARE TIMES WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS TOO REAL TO BE TRUE ISNT IT?

MAYBE WHAT TESS SAID IS RIGHT.

BUT IDK. YOU DONT MAKE ME FEEL THAT WAY DUDE.

);

I WAS ANTICIPATING FOR YOU ARRIVAL.

BUT NOW, I WISH YOU WERE STILL IN JAPAN. 
)))))):

I dont know why i'm feeling this way.

Yes, life is just a show. But why are you guys acting all like this way.

or maybe i should say why am i acting this way too?

Why cant we just be bold and just go straight to the person's face and say i dont like you?

Why must we always act like we dont dislike that person?

I DONT LIKE ALL THESE. ):

SOMEDAY, EVEN YOUR CLOSEST FRIEND MIGHT TURN THEIR BACKS ON YOU.

O LEVEL IS OFFICIALLY OVER FOR ME ! ^^
yay! Its time for lots of things!!!!
Movie marathons, buffets, gathering, sun-tanning, jobs, band, KL trip etc.
I wanna go for courses too! Ok, maybe photography course! ^^
How is life gng to be w/o studies for months?! ^^
& no more late night studying! HAPPY! ^^
I can now have my beauty sleep for as long as i want! ^^

Went down to Orchard & saw lots of familar faces there.
HAHAHAH! Met Shai&Friend there. LOL ^^
Ok, THANKS GOHZHIHUI! :D
& goodluck for your last paper! MUACKS!

Alright, is Lawr like back? Hahahaha. My mama miss him -.-
Anyway, A bigbigbigbig thank you no matter what the results will be.

BAND.BAND.BAND.BAND!
Prom is arriving DDDDDDDDD:

To reply or not to reply? D:

Chinese paper tmr & i've got no idea why i'm still here.
Hahs. Alright shall go studying!^^
Looking forward to a lot of things.

& HEYHEY! Dont emo ok! SMILE! ^^

MUSIC THEORY!

Alright, wasnt that bad.
I'll be happy with just a pass! ^^ Self-study you know!
So bused down to RGS & went to take the paper.
Hahas, when back to school after the paper.
Went to eat & went back to see the band ^^
FUNFUNFUN! ^^

F&N paper on Monday!
Oh no! I HAVENT START STUDYING DDDD:
Oh come on! A FEW MORE DAYS!

I feel so dumb!
I brought back Khairi's dirty band tee -.-
ALL THANKS TO SHAWN WONG -.-
What an ass! & he happily didnt answer my call until i reached home -.-
Stupid shawn DDDDD:

Alright! TA-TA! ^^
Goodluck people, its really the last! ^^
& S is acting weird this few days :O

Back to normal? Tell me its still workable!

KUDOS TO KHAIRI! ^^

Music theory tmr & i know nothing regarding grade 3 -.-
Going to flunk the damnit paper. D:
Alright, woke up in the morning & had super ugly swollen eyes.
Went down to school & practically sat at my section area & read storybooks. ^^
Then blahblahblah & went down to CCAB to support khairi & joleen ^^
GREAT JOB GUYS ^^

LALALALA~
Ytd, was the worse day ever.
But today is better ^^
Thanks S for everything last night ^^
& Of course my whole family who practically asked me why on earth i was crying late at night.
LOLOL. THANKS! ^^

Coz yknw why everything is this way.
& it just isnt getting better,
& i know its my sensitivity again.
Maybe, i shouldnt care so much now.
You have your circle of friends, i have mine too.
No more everyday in a week.
I doubt that after Os, i'll even get to meet you ONCE a week.
Haas.
& i no longer know how to communicate with you,
Maybe during the Olevel period its becuase you were stressed up with studies.
But now? Os is kinda over for you.
But i just cant seem to get things back to normal like before where i will be ranting everything to you.
I no longer can.
Maybe when things change, there really isnt a way to bring it back to normal.
Its that right?

For once, i really feel damnit miserable.
Yes, i am.
I knew you wouldnt, but i hope you would.
Yes, i'm damn disappointed now, very.

It has been a long time since i had such feelings.
A long time before i felt so miserable.
I thought everything would be alright.
I thought that i wouldnt mind if you didnt message me.
Oh, i was effing wrong, I mind.
I thought you will be there to console me.
You knew everything that happened.
So now, you even expect me to tell you why i cried?
Yes, partly its was you.
Ohwell, you will read. But i know you will do nothing.
Yes, nothing.
& there you will go again saying that you suck at handling all these things.
& the whole cycle repeats. Its enough. I dont want to go through such things anymore.
Now, its either you care, or you dont.
Deep down inside me, i alr have an answer, You wouldnt care.
But i'm still pinning the hope that you will care.
Everything is affecting me too much.
Oh, fuck shit.
I didnt know i will cry my eyes out all because of all this. 
4years of friendship that i treasured.
Never expected it to be like this.
You took me by surprise.  

3 MORE PAPERS TO GO + MUSIC THEORY EXAM!
But i'm feeling the NO-MORE-Os feel!
HAHA. alright. Its really free after the end of Os ^^

[Edited]
I cant.

08MOREDAYS!

SAY BYEBYE TO SOCIAL STUDIES! ^^

Didnt complete 2 question, or should i say attempt -.-
LOL. Ok, score for geog!
& for once, i think chem is nice! HAHAHAHA
Clique will know why! ^^
LOVESLOVES! ^^